Helloooooo!
It's been a while so I thought I would update ya'll on what's going on with me...at least fertility-wise. I have decided, after years of waiting and waiting and...waiting, that I am going to see a fertility doctor. Actually, I have already made the appointment.
Why did I wait so long?
The thought of going to a fertility doctor, and then having something happen or being told that there was something else going on is probably one of the most scary things I could think of. If I try clomid, or some other ovulatory medication and it doesn't help it will be crushing. I know there ARE other options such as embryo transplants, etc. but they are expensive and not so simple.
I also had this hope that I was hanging on to. I felt like if I tried to do everything right, or I had enough faith, that I would get pregnant....WELLLLLL...I am still waiting. Sometimes I feel like I am being impatient...I have been wating nearly 5 years to do something so I am done "waiting". I will probably be on some type of fertility medication by the end of the month.
Please keep us in your prayers as we go through this time. I am trusting God that he will give us a baby...I hope he does.
Christin and Ricky
After a wonderful vacation in Mexico! May '10
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
What have we been up to?
There has been a lot going on in the past few months. I started and new and fabulous job, we got 2 kiddos Austin-6 and Ashley-8, and we've gotten a little older....Oh yeah, and had a blizzard and missed like 11 days of school...here is some evidence from all of these happenings
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| Christmas Morning in front of the fireplace |
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| Ricky Turned 26 |
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| The kids had their first day at school |
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| Dad, Mom, and Jon |
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| Minsky's Pizza-We've had several visits here and lots of laughs |
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| Rupert...The cone didn't work, the nasty tasting spray didn't work...so we resorted to the wheelbarrow tire wrapped in orange duct tape |
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| Ashley turned 8 |
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| Our neighbor was the hero and snowblowed our driveway for us! |
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| And it snowed.... |
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| And snowed |
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Finding out I had PCOS
I have never had regular periods. I remember when I was in my teen years thinking about how it was so weird and wondering (even then) if something was wrong with me and if I would ever get pregnant. Of course when you are a teenager you enjoy not having to deal with monthly visits from "Aunt Flo" but it still seemed strange to me.
Fast forward to when I got married...I thought that people had sex, and got pregnant. I didn't know how MANY people had fertility issues. A few months before I got married I started birth control. That was the first time I had been on birth control and in my mind that's just one of the many things that was on the list of things to do before your wedding day. Needless to say, birth control made me feel psychotic...and my husband (Ricky) was probably wondering what he was getting himself into...lol. After being married for a month or so I decided that I didn't like feeling like a psycho and decided to get off of it. I thought it would take a couple of months to adjust, but figured that maybe I would start having regular periods...nope.
I probably spent hundreds of dollars on pregnancy tests...my dad teased me saying that we should have bought stock, because they were so expensive and I was always buying them. In my mind, I wasn't having periods, I didn't feel pregnant, but there must be a reason that I wasn't having periods. Let me just say that peeing on a stick is VERY emotional. Every time I took a test it was another confirmation that something wasn't right with me and a huge crushing blow to my heart.
This was before my "crunchy" days when I knew about healthy eating, fertility, birth, pregnancy and so on. I finally decided that I should probably bring it up in my yearly exam and made an appointment. This doctor came with excellent recommendations and I was excited to see what they could do to "fix" my problem. I went to my appointment and my dear friend (Shannon) gave me an idea to ask the doctor some questions about her philosophy on birth and her birth and c- section rates.
When I let the doctor know that I had some questions for her she acted irritated but started answering 1 or 2. When I started asking her about her birth philosophy she said to me: "Don't you think you are putting the cart before the horse." She talked to be about PCOS...basically just saying: "It sounds like you have PCOS, we will test you for it" and suckering me into getting a STD test that was completely unnecessary, but I did it because I didn't know better. A couple of weeks later I got the call...from my doctor? No, doctors don't have time to make calls. It was from her nurse. She told me "You have PCOS, what is the number to your nearest pharmacy?" She didn't tell me what PCOS was, if the drugs were going to fix me, or anything else. She offered no explanation in helping me understand what was going on or what all of this meant.
Thankfully Shannon had introduced me to her doula Louise and she spent some time explaining things to me. The drugs the doctors wanted to put me on were not a fix for my problem, just a symptom and really wouldn't make a difference in the underlying issues. I started to research PCOS to find out what it was, but at this point still didn't understand that I could (possibly) reverse my PCOS or really anything about my body.
I've read that a woman's response to finding out she has fertility issues can be very similar to someone who finds out they have a terminal illness. I know that for me it was fairly stressful at first, but became increasingly difficult to deal with month after month of knowing that my body was not working right. There is so much I "know" I should be doing, but it's really hard. I've cried thousands of tears, and every time I find out a close friend or relative is pregnant it hurts in a deep way. Seeing others having what you so desperately desire is very painful and hard. It's also confusing because you are so truly and genuinely happy for the person, but knowing that your body is still messed up is really hard. It makes it even harder when people tell you, I wasn't sure if I should tell you or not, but I didn't want you to find out later. I don't want to be treated differently from other friends, and yes it's hard, but I still celebrate and am happy for those who do get pregnant. I also have heard countless times, "So and so couldn't get pregnant and then adopted and got pregnant right after" or "So and so finally stopped trying and found out they were pregnant shortly after." BLAH...
I feel like the Lord has taken me through all of this for a reason. I have done a lot in the past 5 years, including getting my college degree in education, and the Lord showing his provision through providing me with a job in a horrible economy. We also started fostering in December of 2010 and would not have had these precious kiddos if we had started our own family. I don't know what will happen, or what the Lord still wants me to learn, but even though I deeply desire to get pregnant, I am ok with where I am at now. This is my story, thoughts and feelings (the short version, lol)...
Christin
Fast forward to when I got married...I thought that people had sex, and got pregnant. I didn't know how MANY people had fertility issues. A few months before I got married I started birth control. That was the first time I had been on birth control and in my mind that's just one of the many things that was on the list of things to do before your wedding day. Needless to say, birth control made me feel psychotic...and my husband (Ricky) was probably wondering what he was getting himself into...lol. After being married for a month or so I decided that I didn't like feeling like a psycho and decided to get off of it. I thought it would take a couple of months to adjust, but figured that maybe I would start having regular periods...nope.
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| This is a picture of me on our wedding day-June 2006 |
This was before my "crunchy" days when I knew about healthy eating, fertility, birth, pregnancy and so on. I finally decided that I should probably bring it up in my yearly exam and made an appointment. This doctor came with excellent recommendations and I was excited to see what they could do to "fix" my problem. I went to my appointment and my dear friend (Shannon) gave me an idea to ask the doctor some questions about her philosophy on birth and her birth and c- section rates.
When I let the doctor know that I had some questions for her she acted irritated but started answering 1 or 2. When I started asking her about her birth philosophy she said to me: "Don't you think you are putting the cart before the horse." She talked to be about PCOS...basically just saying: "It sounds like you have PCOS, we will test you for it" and suckering me into getting a STD test that was completely unnecessary, but I did it because I didn't know better. A couple of weeks later I got the call...from my doctor? No, doctors don't have time to make calls. It was from her nurse. She told me "You have PCOS, what is the number to your nearest pharmacy?" She didn't tell me what PCOS was, if the drugs were going to fix me, or anything else. She offered no explanation in helping me understand what was going on or what all of this meant.
Thankfully Shannon had introduced me to her doula Louise and she spent some time explaining things to me. The drugs the doctors wanted to put me on were not a fix for my problem, just a symptom and really wouldn't make a difference in the underlying issues. I started to research PCOS to find out what it was, but at this point still didn't understand that I could (possibly) reverse my PCOS or really anything about my body.
I've read that a woman's response to finding out she has fertility issues can be very similar to someone who finds out they have a terminal illness. I know that for me it was fairly stressful at first, but became increasingly difficult to deal with month after month of knowing that my body was not working right. There is so much I "know" I should be doing, but it's really hard. I've cried thousands of tears, and every time I find out a close friend or relative is pregnant it hurts in a deep way. Seeing others having what you so desperately desire is very painful and hard. It's also confusing because you are so truly and genuinely happy for the person, but knowing that your body is still messed up is really hard. It makes it even harder when people tell you, I wasn't sure if I should tell you or not, but I didn't want you to find out later. I don't want to be treated differently from other friends, and yes it's hard, but I still celebrate and am happy for those who do get pregnant. I also have heard countless times, "So and so couldn't get pregnant and then adopted and got pregnant right after" or "So and so finally stopped trying and found out they were pregnant shortly after." BLAH...
I feel like the Lord has taken me through all of this for a reason. I have done a lot in the past 5 years, including getting my college degree in education, and the Lord showing his provision through providing me with a job in a horrible economy. We also started fostering in December of 2010 and would not have had these precious kiddos if we had started our own family. I don't know what will happen, or what the Lord still wants me to learn, but even though I deeply desire to get pregnant, I am ok with where I am at now. This is my story, thoughts and feelings (the short version, lol)...
Christin
Thursday, February 3, 2011
What am I doing here?
In the past, I have thought about blogging many times...but keep putting it off! My goal is to get pregnant this year. I have been married for 4 1/2 years and we have not yet become pregnant. I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2006 and have had a rough and crazy journey to where I am now!
My goal in blogging is to keep a "journal" of my progress. To be honest I am not sure where this all will lead, but I will be trying to update regularly and post some of the things that I want to do on my road to having my own precious baby! Today I was reading week 12 of a 12-week online fertility workshop that I took from Donielle's "Naturally Knocked Up" website. It said to take some time to write down some goals that I had, so that's what I did! Here they are:
I want to get pregnant this year!
Before Pregnancy-
Detox my body
Lose some weight
Feel better
Relax more
Battle my sugar cravings
During Pregnancy-
Exercise regularly
Put good and wholesome things in my body
Read, study, and prepare myself for having a child of my own
The cycle an egg (and sperm) go through is approximately 90 days. Because of this I am going to spend some time getting ready to get pregnant. In February, there are a few things I would like to do; Begin juicing (at least once a week), drink a cleansing tea every day, castor oil packs regularly, exercise at least 2 times a week, and eat at least 1 serving of fruits or veggies every day.
I know these things may be simple, and seem easy, but with 2 foster kids, working full time, and taking care of a home these things will be a big step towards my goal!
Thanks for reading!
Christin
My goal in blogging is to keep a "journal" of my progress. To be honest I am not sure where this all will lead, but I will be trying to update regularly and post some of the things that I want to do on my road to having my own precious baby! Today I was reading week 12 of a 12-week online fertility workshop that I took from Donielle's "Naturally Knocked Up" website. It said to take some time to write down some goals that I had, so that's what I did! Here they are:
I want to get pregnant this year!
Before Pregnancy-
Detox my body
Lose some weight
Feel better
Relax more
Battle my sugar cravings
During Pregnancy-
Exercise regularly
Put good and wholesome things in my body
Read, study, and prepare myself for having a child of my own
The cycle an egg (and sperm) go through is approximately 90 days. Because of this I am going to spend some time getting ready to get pregnant. In February, there are a few things I would like to do; Begin juicing (at least once a week), drink a cleansing tea every day, castor oil packs regularly, exercise at least 2 times a week, and eat at least 1 serving of fruits or veggies every day.
I know these things may be simple, and seem easy, but with 2 foster kids, working full time, and taking care of a home these things will be a big step towards my goal!
Thanks for reading!
Christin
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